Susen Edwards’ Lookin' for
Love delivers a deeply moving tale that spans decades. It chronicles the
tumultuous life of Ava Novak, a character shaped by a painful childhood,
multiple tumultuous relationships, and the search for self-worth and stability
amidst chaos. The novel's depth lies in its rich character development, intricate
conflicts, plot twists, and a setting that evolves alongside Ava's journey. It is 1963, and nineteen-year-old Ava is trapped in a cycle of
violence and despair after marrying an alcoholic and being cast aside by her
abusive mother. The weight of her circumstances forces her to bear two sons and
ultimately turn to go-go dancing, desperately numbing her pain with alcohol and
drugs. Ava's life takes a dramatic turn when she meets Mike, a charming drug
dealer with promises of a glamorous future. Together, they plunge into the
dangerous world of The Crew, a major drug smuggling organization, which leads
them to the vibrant landscapes of Kenya in search of marijuana farmers. But
their dreams shatter as a raid lands Ava behind bars. After the harsh reality
of a Kenyan prison, can she find healing, love, and redemption? The denouement
will take readers by surprise.
This narrative is illuminating, and Susen Edwards’ writing
is exquisite, with a first-person narrative voice that is grounded and that
brilliantly offers a finely drawn image of Ava’s psyche. Ava is a complex
protagonist, carrying the burdens of her mother’s conditional love and a series
of toxic relationships. Her early life, marked by a deceptive mother and an
absent father, leaves her vulnerable and seeking validation. Tom, her first
husband, is the archetypal abuser—charming yet destructive—while Jack provides
a seemingly warm but complacent relationship that ultimately stifles her
growth. Conversely, Mike represents the dangerous allure of rebellion and
excitement, driving Ava into deeper moral ambiguity as she struggles with
addiction and identity.
The primary conflict revolves around Ava's internal
struggle between her desire for independence and her continued dependency on
men for validation and support. It is further complicated by relationships that
oscillate between love and abuse. Every choice Ava makes is mirrored by her
history of manipulation and trauma, often leading her back to unhealthy cycles.
The external conflicts with Tom, her former husband, intensify as he
infantilizes her, asserting that she is unfit to parent their children and
later sabotaging her attempts to regain a connection with them. Edwards
masterfully crafts settings that reflect Ava's internal turmoil. From the
suffocating domesticity of her first marriage to the contrasting freedom and
danger of her life with Mike, the various locales—from New Jersey to Florida
and Colombia—echo her journey of escape and entrapment. Each geographical shift
aligns with crucial turning points, emphasizing Ava's relentless search for love,
belonging, and self-acceptance. Lookin' for Love is a
captivating tale with a message as resonant as the heroine is genuinely
flawed.